The fish I named after my ex died last night. I feel nothing. This is good.
I have way too many pictures of my ex (I don’t know what to call him cause he was a non committal douche but this sums up something)
Unpopular opinion these days:
So I know its supposed be fine to love your curves and your fat but I hate it. I think its gross.
I have been heavier for a lot of my life and I find it disgusting. I hate that my arms just expand when my arms are down by my sides, I hate that I have fat that I can pull and it giggles.
I don’t find my stomach fat something to be celebrated, It looks horrible. It just reminds me that I have failed my body in giving it the best food I can give it and not moving enough. To the fact I am addicted to sugar.
I don’ think it should be celebrated at all. I think people should be comfortable in however they want to look but I don’t want to look like this. I don’t want to feel like this.
Oh cross trainer you kick my ass!!
I have started to drink way more water than I had been in the past so that makes me happy. I need to mix cross trainer with walking though if I want to see results, I don’t think I will be any different in SA but I want to at least make a start and continue it.
I still plan to climb the mountain as well this summer! I haven’t been up the mountains in ages I will bring my go pro and see what I can do :)
Yay for summer all I am doing is exercising and reading and good stuff YEAH!!
Somedays are harder than others.
You feel the weight of how the one person you trusted, fucked you over
and you feel worthless and useless.
But it gets better, theres a big world out there.